Dear Adi

Tag: Healing Journey

  • Picking Up the Pieces, One Small Step at A Time

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    The tears didn’t stop. Why me? Why me? Why me? What wrong had I done to deserve this?Why did you give me a baby after so many years, only to place so many conditions on him?I didn’t want to do this anymore… These thoughts kept running through my head for days. They say the grief…

  • Remembering You This Bohag Bihu

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    Dear Adi, Today is Bohag Bihu—the Assamese New Year. It’s always been one of my favourite festivals. I loved shopping for new clothes for all of us and cooking special dishes to make the day festive. No matter where in the world we were, I always tried to make it special. But this year… I…

  • “I Have Nothing Good to Say to You”

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    With trembling hands and a shaky body, I called Sid to tell him about the diagnosis. I was still holding on to a sliver of hope—hoping that maybe a doctor would say it’s not as bad as it seems. Since I couldn’t get an urgent appointment with a well-known pediatric neurologist, I went to see…

  • A Diagnosis, A Thousand Questions, A Million Fears

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    The report came the next day, and with it came another blow. My baby was diagnosed with a medical condition, a very complicated medical jargon I had heard for the first time. I frantically searched online, trying to make sense of the words on the report. What I found left me shaken. The more I…

  • Your Handprints, Your Scribbles, Your Love

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    Dear Adi, Every day, we try to make peace with the fact that you’re not here with us physically. But the truth is, it still doesn’t feel real. Every morning, I wake up and feel lost all over again. There’s no Adu to wake me up with a hug and a sleepy kiss on my…

  • For her We Chose to Begin Again – Part three

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    Before slipping into unconsciousness, I thought the hardest part was over. I was wrong. When I woke up after the surgery, I was tired but excited. I couldn’t wait to hold my baby boy, to feel him in my arms for the first time. But what was supposed to be a short wait turned into…

  • A Letter To Adi

    A Letter To Adi

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    My sweetheart, you came into our lives on a beautiful Sunday in 2017. Though we were expecting you a month later, you decided to crash and hijack Mana ba’s 10th birthday. Before you were born, I didn’t know that I could love someone as I loved Mana. But you changed all that. You came and…