Dear Adi,
In my last letter, I had told you there’s a lot that happened this month. And it truly was a month of change.
We moved to a new place in the mid of the month. We are still in the process of settling in. Mamba and Deta had to travel a lot each day and it was getting too much for them. So, with a heavy heart, we decided to move to a place nearer to the college and office. It was the practical thing to do.
You must be wondering why I said “with a heavy heart”? You must be thinking I should be welcoming the change. You know why I was reluctant to move from the last place? That home was the last one carrying your memories.
Deep down, I know and understand that I will carry your memories in my heart forever. But still, leaving the home that had your memories etched in every corner was so difficult. I felt as if I lost you all over again. It felt like abandoning you in those rooms that still echoed with your giggles, your footsteps, your voice. That was the last home where you ran around, the kitchen where you spent hours with me, the corners filled with your laughter. Walking away from that was one of the hardest things I’ve done.
The new home we shifted to, is big and has a huge balcony. I have kept your little red chair there. I can see you sitting there for hours, looking at the cars below.. You would have loved it. I imagine your tiny feet pattering through the house, sneaking into Mamba’s room, spinning on her revolving chair, exploring every corner with your wide-eyed curiosity.
That’s the irony you know. From now on, I can only imagine and try to feel you near me. I try to feel you around me, holding on to every memory. And I take solace in the thought that maybe, someday, in another lifetime, we’ll meet again.
Until then, I will keep you in my heart, and will keep loving you with everything I have.
Always yours,
Mamma
