Dear Adi,
It was Rakhi the day before yesterday, and we missed you so much. The simple thought that you wouldn’t be there for this rakhi and for all the years to come is so painful.
You know, I’d always believed that you came into this world solely for Mamba — as an answer to her desperate prayers for a sibling. I felt that’s one of the reasons the bond between you two was so strong. Before you were born, she would tie a rakhi to Lord Vishnu every single year.
The last few days leading up to Rakhi this year have been so tough for both Mamba and me. We never imagined that this year, you wouldn’t be here with us.
We kept remembering last Rakhi — Mamba and Neysha tying rakhis on your little wrist. How you were more interested in the sweets afterwards? It was such a beautiful moment !
Who would have thought that last year would be the last time Mamba would tie a rakhi for you? This year, my heart broke as she placed her rakhi at the temple. Neysha brought one for you too, and I kept it there beside hers.
I still can’t understand why you had to leave so soon. You came to us after such a long wait, only to go away again. You were supposed to be here — at least for Mamba. She’s so lonely without you, and she misses you so deeply. This void you’ve left… I know it can never be filled.
I hope you’re happy and safe, wherever you are. I hope you’ll keep guiding and protecting your sisters, always.
Love you forever, Jaan.
Mamma
