Dear Adi,
It’s 2:30 a.m., and I can’t sleep. I miss you so much. One more night spent crying for you. One more night spent wondering what I did wrong to lose you so soon. Everything feels so meaningless without you. I keep asking the Almighty — why did He bring you to us, only to take you away so soon? I’ve never hurt anyone intentionally, never caused harm to anyone. Then why did I have to lose you?
I can’t console myself. Nothing can fill this void. Right now, it feels like I can’t even survive a moment without you. It’s as if I’m just waiting for the day I’ll see you again. How do I stop this storm inside me? How do I quieten my heart? I don’t have an answer.
I want to hold you once again — to cuddle you, kiss you, love you. I miss you with a longing nothing can fill. Wish I could bring you back somehow. Wish I could hear you say “nice” again, hold your hand, take you to the park like before.
I wish I could see you grow into the handsome boy you were meant to be. It’s not fair, Adu. It’s just not fair that you left us here, yearning for you every moment. We had so many things left to do together, so many wishes unfulfilled.
I suppose I have no choice but to live this life until I must — to do what I have to, until it’s time.
I will love you forever and always, sweetheart.
Hope you’ve found peace and love wherever you are.
Love, Mamma
