Dear Adi

Tag: Child Loss

  • One Step At A Time

    One Step At A Time

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    Dear Adi, Today marks four months since you left us. Four months of living without our dearest Adi — the heartbeat of our family. While a lot has changed on the surface, deep down, nothing has. Not the ache. Not the memories. Not the love. Mamba passed her 12th exams with flying colours. Even though…

  • Letters That Keep Us Close

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    Writing to you keeps me going, Adi. On the good days and the hard ones, these letters are my way of staying close to you. In my dreams, in my heart—you are always there.

  • Ordinary Was Never Ordinary With You!

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    You stopped playing, stopped calling me “mamma”, and it broke me. But we waited. We held on. And when you began returning to us—little by little—we learned that nothing in life is truly ordinary. You taught us that.

  • The Week We Never Expected

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    A fever, a silence, and a fight we weren’t ready for. Our happy moments from the trip didn’t last long. By the time we got home, Adi had a slight fever. I gave him paracetamol, and it came down. He was a bit cranky but seemed better after some rest. I kept monitoring him and…

  • Choosing the Present Over Fear

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    Adi was now a very active toddler. My days were spent taking care of him and managing the home. On the surface, everything seemed okay. But in my mind, thoughts about his health and future never stopped. They kept me awake most nights. There were times I’d lie frozen in fear, overwhelmed by the unknown.…

  • Two Months Without You!

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    It’s been two months since Adi left us, and every corner of our home still whispers his name. His slippers by the door, his toys on the shelf, his empty plate — they all remind us of the love we lost. The pain hasn’t eased, nor has the heartache faded. But amidst the sorrow, there’s…

  • When Clarity Gives Strength

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    Thankfully, the medications began to work, and the seizures were under control to a large extent. It pained me every single day to give him those medicines. But I kept telling myself—at least they’re working, and for that, I should be grateful. Soon after, we moved to Singapore. Life settled into a routine. Sid went…

  • A Sudden Stillness

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    February 2018 — By now, Adi was five months old, and our world revolved around him. Every little moment, every tiny milestone, became the centre of our lives. His sleep, his giggles, his little fists grasping our fingers—everything felt precious. We cherished every moment. For my daughter, having a baby brother was a dream come…

  • Your Handprints, Your Scribbles, Your Love

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    Dear Adi, Every day, we try to make peace with the fact that you’re not here with us physically. But the truth is, it still doesn’t feel real. Every morning, I wake up and feel lost all over again. There’s no Adu to wake me up with a hug and a sleepy kiss on my…

  • A Letter To Adi

    A Letter To Adi

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    My sweetheart, you came into our lives on a beautiful Sunday in 2017. Though we were expecting you a month later, you decided to crash and hijack Mana ba’s 10th birthday. Before you were born, I didn’t know that I could love someone as I loved Mana. But you changed all that. You came and…