Last Shivratri came just days after I lost Adi. This year, the memories returned just as strongly — prayer and grief intertwined.
Grief is deeply personal. Not everyone knows how to sit with it, and not everyone will try. This year taught me to stop expecting understanding — and to walk my journey in my own way.
Adi loved learning, just not in the way the world expects children to. Watching him understand concepts in his own quiet, beautiful way taught me that learning doesn’t have to be linear—it just needs patience and love.
Once Covid was over, restrictions eased and schools started, I was faced with a new situation. Adi had to start schooling and I didn’t know where to send him. I wanted him to have a social atmosphere, but at the same time I didn’t want to overwhelm him. Yet again, I was clueless about the …
11 months without Adi… and the quiet in our home feels louder than ever.
“This year, all we had were the memories—of every birthday we celebrated with you, every little joy you brought into our lives. Still, I baked a cake for you, because your birthday will always be a blessing we cherish, no matter what.”
Just four songs — that’s all Adi wanted, day after day. They played on loop, filling our little apartment with his laughter and happy little dances. Even now, when I hear them, I’m right back there… in those strange, uncertain days, holding on to the love and small joys that kept us going.
Alone in a new city. Two kids. A world locked down. And yet, somewhere between the chaos and the quiet, I found strength I didn’t know I had. This is a story of surviving — and learning to live fully, even when the world outside felt like it was falling apart.
Adu Baby, It’s been five months since you left us. Not a moment passes by when I don’t think of you. I miss you so much, can’t explain in mere words! You know what? Mamba has completely changed her room. We sold the bed, the table, everything. Since you left, she couldn’t bear to be …
Hi Adu Baby, A few days ago, we went to watch Sitare Zameen Par, Aamir Khan’s new film. I didn’t really know what it was about, but Deta and Mamba were keen, so I went along. I’m so glad I did. Throughout the movie, I kept thinking of you. I couldn’t hold back my tears. …