The tears didn’t stop. Why me? Why me? Why me? What wrong had I done to deserve this?Why did you give me a baby after so many years, only to place so many conditions on him?I didn’t want to do this anymore… These thoughts kept running through my head for days. They say the grief…
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Remembering You This Bohag Bihu
Dear Adi, Today is Bohag Bihu—the Assamese New Year. It’s always been one of my favourite festivals. I loved shopping for new clothes for all of us and cooking special dishes to make the day festive. No matter where in the world we were, I always tried to make it special. But this year… I…
“I Have Nothing Good to Say to You”
With trembling hands and a shaky body, I called Sid to tell him about the diagnosis. I was still holding on to a sliver of hope—hoping that maybe a doctor would say it’s not as bad as it seems. Since I couldn’t get an urgent appointment with a well-known pediatric neurologist, I went to see…
A Diagnosis, A Thousand Questions, A Million Fears
The report came the next day, and with it came another blow. My baby was diagnosed with a medical condition, a very complicated medical jargon I had heard for the first time. I frantically searched online, trying to make sense of the words on the report. What I found left me shaken. The more I…
A Sudden Stillness
February 2018 — By now, Adi was five months old, and our world revolved around him. Every little moment, every tiny milestone, became the centre of our lives. His sleep, his giggles, his little fists grasping our fingers—everything felt precious. We cherished every moment. For my daughter, having a baby brother was a dream come…
Your Handprints, Your Scribbles, Your Love
Dear Adi, Every day, we try to make peace with the fact that you’re not here with us physically. But the truth is, it still doesn’t feel real. Every morning, I wake up and feel lost all over again. There’s no Adu to wake me up with a hug and a sleepy kiss on my…
For her We Chose to Begin Again – Part three
Before slipping into unconsciousness, I thought the hardest part was over. I was wrong. When I woke up after the surgery, I was tired but excited. I couldn’t wait to hold my baby boy, to feel him in my arms for the first time. But what was supposed to be a short wait turned into…
For Her We Chose To Begin Again – Part 2
February 2017: That’s when we found out we were going to welcome another little soul into our family. I was going to be a mom again after 9 years. This time, it felt… different. My heart was a mix of emotions I couldn’t quite put into words. I was happy, excited, and grateful for another…
For Her, We Chose to Begin Again – Part One
Ours was a love marriage. Life blessed us with a daughter two years after we got married, and she became our everything. She was the center of our world, and for the longest time, we felt complete. We never thought about having another child. Life felt full just the way it was. But as our…
The story behind Dearadi.com
On February 18, 2025, our world changed forever. We—my husband, my daughter, and I—lost our precious seven-year-old angel, Adi (Advvik). Life hasn’t been the same since. Saying we are shattered feels like an understatement. Each of us is navigating this unimaginable loss in our own way, but the ache is constant. As a mother, I…