Hi Adu baby,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Here\u2019s another letter to you. You know what? I look forward to writing these every day. On the days I don\u2019t, I feel unsettled, like something is missing. These letters keep me close to you. It\u2019s like I\u2019m still talking to you, heart to heart. And slowly, they\u2019re helping me get through the days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The other day, I told Mamba, \u201cAdi has taken up so much real estate in our hearts and minds.\u201d \ud83d\ude0a It\u2019s true\u2014you\u2019re everywhere. When I\u2019m cooking, watching TV, travelling, chatting with someone, listening to music, or just going about my day\u2014you are there<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You even show up in my dreams. A quiet presence, but still there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Two nights ago, I dreamt that you had come back. We were overjoyed\u2014me, Deta and Mamba kept calling out, \u201cAdi, guxai moni!\u201d You were home, and I went to cook rice for you. But the rice slipped from my hands and spilled into the sink. I couldn\u2019t make it for you\u2026 and just like that, you were gone again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I woke up crying, heartbroken. It felt like I lost you all over again. The pain was unbearable. That whole day, I couldn\u2019t stop crying. I couldn\u2019t explain it to anyone. Deta and Mamba saw my sadness but didn\u2019t know how to comfort me and lessen my pain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I miss you terribly, Adi. Love you always, Jaan. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Writing to you keeps me going, Adi. On the good days and the hard ones, these letters are my way of staying close to you. In my dreams, in my heart\u2014you are always there.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[26,28],"tags":[4,10,22,9,8],"class_list":["post-96","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-letters-to-adi","category-memories","tag-child-loss","tag-coping-mechanisms","tag-grief-healing","tag-grief-journaling","tag-healing-journey","entry entry-center"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=96"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":99,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96\/revisions\/99"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=96"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=96"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dearadi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=96"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Some days I manage. And some days feel impossible. I guess I\u2019ll have to learn to live with both.
You\u2019ll help me, won\u2019t you?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Your Mamma<\/p>\n\n\n\n